one month from today.
one month from today.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
I want to eat a thick, juicy cheeseburger. Filet Mignon straight from the grill. Guacamole with big, creamy avocado chunks. Publix bakery Italian bread. Real cheese . . . sharp cheddar and fresh-grated parmesan. I want a huge fried-chicken salad from Ruby Tuesday’s. And ice-cold two percent milk by the glassful.
I cannot wait to drive. To walk out of the house and climb in the car and go wherever I want. To change my mind mid-trip and stop by a friend’s house or pick up a mocha from Starbucks.
I want to wander the aisles of favorite supermarkets – Giant and Stauffers and Publix and Food Lion. Then I want to take over my mother-in-law’s kitchen and bake cookies and muffins and artisan bread to my heart’s content.
I want to brush my teeth with water straight from the tap. And take a long, long hot shower and shave my legs.
I want to watch my kids run free in a field of grass and walk on a smooth sidewalk. I want to let them stop and pet every dog they see. I want to walk with them into the hushed, glass-walled Richland County Public library, and feel the a.c. blasting, and take the elevator down to the lively children’s floor. I want to let them pick out whatever books they want.
I want to wear shorts and sleeveless shirts and dresses. I want to walk down the street and not be stared at. I don’t want my children to be stranger-surrounded, squeezed, cheeks pinched. I don’t want to be laughed at for my funny accent. I want to blend in.
I don’t want to ever stop hugging people. I want to sit in a room full of people who know me. I want to laugh until I cry. I want to stand in church and sing with my eyes closed because I know all the words. I want to open my Bible and take notes and listen to the whole sermon and know my kids are happy in Children’s Church.
One month from today.
I can’t wait.