like eggs in a cake.
“All right then. Plan on dinner at six. Your friend can come too, if you’d like.”
“That’s okay,” I say. One thing I know is that I’ll be worn out by four thirty or five. I’ll need a break. When it’s new and important, you have to rest in between times. And anyway, even when I like a person there is a weariness that comes. I can be with someone and everything is fine and then all of a sudden it can wash over me like a sickness, that I need the quiet of my own self. I need to unload my head and look at what I’ve got in there so far. See it. Think what it means. I always need to come back to being alone for awhile. I guess I sort of got used to it when I was younger and now it is mixed in my character like eggs in a cake. Sometimes I wonder, does this mean I’ll have to be a nun or something?
– Elizabeth Berg, Joy School